Date: Mon, 02 Sep 2002 17:45:49 -0400
Subject: digging out hearts....


I have dug out hearts

my children's

all my babies as I watch them grow older....

not knowing what secrets to reveal

and in revealing which heart i may

break

irretrievably

made silent

agonizing over the complexities

that are so simple
to them

and straightforward as anger or pleasure

as black or white

how do i tell them what secrets i know
that black was once white

white was at times devious

this intricate living on the edge that has trained me to hear and see
what
so few seem to acknowledge

i am ever confused

as ever confused

when should i tell them these secrets
and

risk breaking their faith
their hearts

                         yet in the not telling who am i betraying
                         but them....

again and again complicit with an adult world that watches in jaded 
amusement as these children stumble and trip

is it so wrong to reach out and give them a helping hand

do i even know how?

                 what right do i have to know these secrets
                         or to keep them
                                 or to tell them....


or do i just think i know

perhaps it is they who are keeping the secret
to protect me....




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